Where do I belong?

After back-to-back meetings on managing academic programs, this thought crept into my mind, unwanted:

this is you now. you are now reduced to a middle manager. you are no longer a scientist. you have not produced a decent research project in years, and you have not been involved in any research projects.

Aaaaargh!

Can it really be true? Have I truly “forgot” how to be a scientist? Please don’t let it happen!!!